2010

Years End !

A New Year's Beginning

As two thousand and nine reached out to it's end,

a beautiful Oriental Flower, - could she be my Friend ?

November and December gave wing, showed me promise.

New Years Eve gave birth to a New Year, the promise

of, seemed to give way to the promise of 's, demise

What did I see ?, What did I know ?, was I not wise ?

In the early hours of two thousand and ten,

did it become clear ?, the message she did send,

would it show ?, the promise of, would end in pain

and life would revert to what it was, once again.

This body of mine, my mind, my arms knew only air

as this beautiful Oriental Flower, this Lady fair

did leave me alone, into the darkness, my dreams to stare

at the future, into it's heart and all that it would never bring -

the joyous lyrics, the lively tunes never to sing.

I knew - in pain and disappointment - it might never be

yet, in the worlds of hope, desire, expectations I still want to see

their essence give birth to a future full of realized dreams,

dreams that - because of much - die a thousand deaths, it seems

in the mind of this indigent, disabled old man

who thought - at life, happiness and love - could try his hand,

just one more time before life ends in changes

that take us back and then - maybe ?, - ahead,

but for this moment, here I am, alone instead

pen in hand - words and fate - which arranges

what will fill and with what ?, all life's changes

as moments walk passed all the memories of the effulgence

my Oriental beauty radiated upon this tired old soul

as her - I thought, I believed, me she wanted to know.

Like Christmas day, where there lay no snow,

I am left with a feeling that there is something missing,

yet her beautiful lips, her soul I still want to be kissing.

And now I feel I have been kissing it all good bye.

B J "A" 2

January 1st 2010